Day 12

Great. I woke up sick. My throat is so sore, I can hardly speak. I have a collab booked in for today which I will now have to cancel. Literally I have had about 2 hours of work for the past 3 weeks and I’ve had to pay for the new print run of my books which is SO EXPENSIVE so I’m starting to stress about finances a bit. Lucky I have help with Edi-Rae today so I can try and rest (while I work) and pack for the retreat tomorrow (CAN I EVEN GO?!). 

I went to the doctors and he gave me antibiotics incase it’s a throat infection and swabbed me to check for viruses. Then I snuck into Adairs and spent money I don’t have to make myself feel better. WHY DO I MAKE MY LIFE HARDER?

Our nanny had to leave early to pick her sick son up from school (she later notified me he was faking it HAHA) so Edi-Rae joined the meeting I was in with my assistant and I confirm she was not a helpful addition to the meeting. Still cute though. 

I still wasn’t feeling well by 3 so had to cancel group physio reformer again. I pay $85 a week for 2 classes (so expensive I know but it's pretty much a physio session/rehab for my knee & pelvis area) and I’ve been to one class in a whole fortnight. I should have gone though because I reckon dinner time here is harder work than my reformer class. I could have even just hid in the car or something.

Paddy came home from daycare clearly sick again - nooooooo! Such a runny nose and coughing. The kids bed times were a bit sad today because I’m leaving early for the retreat so I knew it could have been the last time I see them for 3 days. I didn’t want to let them go and struggled so hard to not cry. I actually feel sick thinking about leaving. Can I even do this?

My Bed time came and my bags were packed and I was definitely feeling better than I was in the morning so I’m all set for this 3 night retreat. Paddy kept waking sniffling and not being able to breathe through his nose. He was SO upset, Nick had to get him out of bed and turn the tv on for him because nothing at all would calm him down. They ended up on the couch the poor things. I feel so guilty leaving now.