Daycare was today thank god because the morning was horrific. Some mornings I just want to cry. I wonder if it's just me or is it normal to struggle this much to get out the door? Am I just really crap at parenting? It was like an 8 hour day packed in to 2 hours and I was ready to clock off by 8am. I don’t know what the hell was going on this morning but no one was happy. Edi-Rae fell off the couch, Paddy didn’t want me to help her, then they were hangry but wouldn’t let me even make breakfast, just stood there crying pulling my pjs. I actually set up a tripod this morning to do a “day in the life of video” and they really did not disappoint.
After school drop off, I went for a much-needed kid free walk, then came back and tidied the breakfast mess (which actually is so time consuming) and then off I went to my drum lesson. I am loving my drum lesson! So good to be using my brain in a creative way and to be working towards something. After that I went to the sports megastore to buy Nick a Bronco's jersey for the GF this weekend. I put it on the bed with a cute love letter. I’m really trying to show him I love him and reconnect. It’s just so hard with two kids to connect at all. We don't even get time to have a conversation because he goes to bed as soon as Paddy does. I often miss Nick. Even though we live under the same roof sometimes it's like he isn't even there. 4:30 came around and it was time for my Group Physio Pilates session, then I came home to do the usual night routine with the fam bam. I love nights here. They are so much calmer than the dreaded mornings. All in all, it ended up being a great day and I did lots to fill my cup which I am so grateful for.