Day 25

Another great day! I feel like I’m on a roll here with the wins. I always get low key scared when things go good for a while because I feel like it’s too good to be true. I feel like my headspace has been good because I have been really making sure I have prioritised ME time lately rather than just work and be a Mum. Ever since doing my timeline therapy, I no longer feel guilt for looking after myself. I know longer become worried if Nick isn’t happy about me having some time out. I just do it. Because I know I deserve it.

Today was a daycare day. The morning was pretty smooth here. Well like, when I say smooth it we are talking no kid injury’s, me having no breakdowns etc. There was definitely still a lot of chaos. It was Edi-Rae’s 3rd day at kindy which is usually the worse in terms of being sad at drop off and it certainly was. It broke me. I headed home and cried in my quiet kid free house. Then I started thinking about how much I miss the both of them and cried more. What a roller coaster parenting is. Can’t wait to have time to yourself, but cry because you have time to yourself.

I had my weekly drum lesson today which brings me so much joy. I just love it. I love learning something new, every time I am there I feel so proud of myself. I was then meant to go home and work but I decided to book myself in for a sauna. How lucky am I right?! The sauna was bliss. I listened to a podcast called are you happy. Brittany Hockley was interviews and it was definitely a big reminder to me that we are all going through something hard in this life. As much as people look like they have it all, no one ever does. It’s so important to be kind to people because you never know what someone is going through. I think some people think people with a platform aren’t human beings but they are.

Nick came home from work and I had my online shopping arrivals out on the floor and then I told him I had a sauna after my drums and I could tell he was automatically pissed off. I just ignored it because whatever. He has it good. He has flexibility so I should too. I run this whole house, I am the default parent & I contribute so much income to this household. I need to put some time in to me and I won’t feel guilty for doing that.

The kids went down so well tonight so I’m putting it out the the universe that they sleep through and we have another amazing day tomorrow!