And after a week of being away we are home. It was so nice to wake up and see the beach and to go to sleep hearing it. Overall it was a great holiday. I was going to write break but it wasn’t a break because it never is with kids, but we did have fun and experience different things to what we usually would. I have a feeling the kids aren’t feeling amazing and haven’t for a while because they were really whingy for the last half of the trip and both Nick and I don’t feel well at all either. I have tonsillitis AGAIN and this afternoon felt so off but obviously I wasn’t able to rest which I feel would be so necessary in getting better but it seems that unless I’m in hospital with a sickness, there is no rest for me. This is my 4th lot of tonsillitis in 4 months so I’m thinking maybe I do need them out? Maybe it would be like another little staycation but on that staycation I could maybe actually rest? Actually doesn’t sound too bad.
We got home and I started unpacking the car while paddy slept and I tried to juggle Edi-Rae. Nick came home alone in his car and when he got in I was rushing around trying to get everything done. He asked why I don’t just sit down and I tried to explain that I need to get a lot done and there is no time. I have a full day of work tomorrow and I’m unwell so I need to have the day free so I can get the work done and not have to do housework. He looked at me like I’m some kind of psycho who has no reason to be flustered. Nick kindly offered to get the groceries with paddy but I said no thanks because he always gets the wrong stuff from the list so I would have had to go there tomorrow anyway to get what I need and he did not like that comment. I definitely could have been nicer about it, but he also knows that he sucks at groceries so I kind of am confused to why he is triggered. I said “would you give me a job like getting on the roof to replace tiles? No”. I then said I can give you another job you would be better at if you like? I probably could have been more kind at this point but all the energy I had left for gentle wifing left my soul and all I was left with was ruthlessness. I decided I should take Paddy with me to do the groceries and give Nick a break. When we got home the house was tidy which was very appreciated.