I just realised that I forgot to do last nights blog entry. In my defence I was out and home super late. Like ELEVEN BLOODY THIRTY WTF. My friend and I went to the Life Uncut live show which was a really good time but my lord I was tired when I got home. And then I fell asleep around midnight and then Paddy woke soon after that and somehow ended up in our bed (AGAIN). I remember pre kids I thought I would neverrrrrrrr co sleep ever. Now its a regular occurance… No wonder Nick and I can’t seem to get our sex life going. He honestly feels like a stranger at the moment, we hardly even speak because the kids are just interrupting us every 2 seconds so its like righto we will chat when they go to bed then by then we are both so exhausted and like nahhhhh we will chat tomorrow and its just a vicious cycle.
We have actually booked a hotel for the coming week to have a night together. We really need it. We need to start trying to connect at least. We really struggle to find a baby sitter for the evenings but our amazing Abby said she can come and do an overnighter for us. It isn’t something we would do often at all so I’m quite excited. But I know I will definitely cry when we leave because as much as I want to have a night away I don’t like being away from the kids for the night. How good is the Mum brain hey. However usually after my second wine I’m okay and ready to partyyyyyyyyyy. And when I say party I mean eat dinner and go to bed 
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I woke up SOOOOOOOO tired today. I had so much work to do, and a lot of it was filming. I really struggle with filming content when I don’t feel energised, its hard to even speak let alone look happy. However somehow I managed to pull to together and got quite a lot done. I haven’t yet edited it though so it could be really bad, we shall see. The insta stuff is really busy coming up to the Black Friday sales. Holy crap so many good sales!!! So I want to share them so others can see the sales too, because it is Xmas and we need to buy for everyone right now anyway so the timing is perfect!
Edi-Rae and Paddy have been pretty hectic over the past couple of days. No idea what’s going on but I hope it resolves itself. Edi-Rae had her first proper tantrum today and it was FEIRCE. I don’t even get how she knows how to be that angry, she is literally a baby. It was actually so funny, I couldn’t help but laugh. She looked at me deep in the eyes when I laughed with a look that said “ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS ?!” The she threw a toy car on the floor so hard and arched her back like she was possessed so I think I’ll try hide my laughter next time. I think all of us here are just exhausted and need to have a chill day. Nick and I have a funeral tomorrow which is so sad. Our friends dad just passed away and I just feel sick to my stomach thinking about how her and her family must be feeling. Life is beautiful but my gosh it can be so hard. Every time I hear of someone losing a loved one it reminds me to make the most of every second and to make sure I’m living a life that is a happy one.