I really struggled today. The lack of sleep and being sick for so long has started to catch up with me and I feel exhausted. I actually fully yelled at Paddy today when he was whinging, I was so upset with myself. It’s so rare for me to do something like that, and if I do I know I’m exhausted. The poor little guy got so much more upset. Just a reminder that yelling is absolutely pointless anyway and doesn’t help at all. I apologised to him straight after and we had a big cuddle which bought me to tears. Meanwhile all this is happening Edi-Rae is pulling at me wanting to be held.
I tried to get out of the house as much as we could because they are always way more settled when we are out and about. They are fucking hectic at home. We did swimming lessons, then went to a cafe some friends of ours own for smoothies (I can confirm I had a coffee not a smoothie) and then to the doctors for me to check my throat. I have had 2 lots of antibiotics so far and its still sore. The doctor suggested that maybe it’s heartburn causing it, but I really don’t think it is because there is so much pressure in my head and ears. I can’t believe I have to wait for another 3 weeks until I see my ENT with this pain.
We came home for naps and I did 3 million chores in a kid free 40 minutes. Then when the kids were awake we went and visited a friend and her kids which was a nice little outing. We came home to a lovely dinner (that I prepared while the kids napped of course) and Nick added lamb chops to the menu which was very appreciated by everyone here except our bank accounts. Both kids are asleep, I have my fingers crossed they stay that way until the morning!