Today we woke up bright and early to do a little walk around the rocks and have Brekky before heading in to see our Grandma. I really took the time to appreciate waking up slowly because obviously with 2 babies waking up slowly is something I haven’t been able to do in a very long time. I face timed Nick and the kids a few times throughout the day which was so nice. Paddy is fine without me there but I can tell Edi-Rae is struggling a bit more. She is my little shadow at home. The guilt is real.
Seeing our Grandma today was hard. We had a chat with the physiotherapist and occupational therapist about her current situation. She really wants to go home but at this point she needs help all of the time when moving around so they suggested an age care facility might be the only option and her head just dropped. It was the hardest thing ever to hear and watch. There was an instant lump in my throat and I was trying so hard to not cry. I would hate for her to not be able to go home, I know it would break her. It’s so upsetting seeing people get old. She was telling us that in her home town Mali-Ston back in Croatia there used to be 11 people living under 1 roof and now there are 11 people in the whole villiage. Thinking about the reality’s of life is something I really struggle with. I try not to think about it ever but it’s these moments you’re forced to and I’m like fuck. This is so real and so hard. It was time for more physio for our Grandma so we left and went back to the hotel.
We ended up having a nice lunch then some drinks back at the hotel and decided to venture out for the night. I ended up on a dance floor at the Argyle and I was looking around thinking holy shit. I AM OLD! I didn’t even think I was that old but being out at night was a huge reminder that I most certainly am very old. No amount of Botox can save me now. And also why are young kids so cool these days?! I was never that cool when I was 18. Anyway we met some people who were more so our age and we danced with them, we actually joined their hens night which was hilarious. We had some good convos and chats with the lovely ladies and then thought we should retire at home and get some room service which we certainly did. I went full pig mode and I was loving it. Got a QP from maccas delivered straight to the room and that was me done.