Day 62
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Last day of November what the actual hell. How is it 25 days until Christmas? Like, Christmas was last week I swear. Time is going much too fast. Today was my first full morning with the kids since having the operation and I am impressed with my parenting skills. I nailed it. I am still in pain and feel a bit run down but I’ve been feeling like this for 6 months anyway so I’m used to it. It’s a daycare day for Paddy so we decided to walk up instead of drive. I was DRIPPING by the time I got up the hill. It was so hot, like beyond a joke hot today. Abby came for a few hours to help with Edi-Rae and I tried to take it easy in that time but of course I hung photos, cleaned the pram, cleaned outside, rearranged paddy’s whole room layout, wrapped presents, packed orders, found the elf in the shelf, dropped the orders off & did groceries. Then it was time for Abby to leave and I was completely exhausted. Should have probably rested! One thing I have realised lately is that I’m not good at resting. My mind doesn’t allow it. I’m either feeling guilty or so distracted. I need to unpack the guilt feeling with my psychologist because I know I shouldn’t feel like that, so I feel like it’s a subconscious thing coming through that I need to sort out. In saying that though, I feel like most women I know feel the exact same way. Anyway, I’m exhausted so off to sleep I go. Fingers crossed paddy stays in his bed tonight !