Today started off really well. Both kids had a sleep in (until 6am!!), I was so shocked looking at the time when I heard Paddy cry out and also shocked he was in his own bed! Very proud of him. I noticed a difference in him straight away after having a good nights sleep. He is so much happier. We managed to get out the door to swimming lessons which is always a bit frantic. I always wonder if other people struggle as much as I do getting out the door in the mornings. I find it really hard! Some mornings are definitely better than others but the majority are pretty nuts.
I’m struggling a bit lately with how much the kids are injuring themselves. It doesn’t stop. As soon as I walk away for one second or I’m not 10cm away from them or holding their hands, someone gets hurt. Whether it’s Paddy not looking where he is going, Paddy hurting Edi-Rae, Edi-Rae tripping over walking, fingers caught in cupboards and drawers. Yesterday Paddy hit his head so hard on a swing Edi-Rae was on, he now has a bruise on his forehead. Then today Edi-Rae tripped and hit her head so hard on bricks and then was attacked by Paddy around 4 times. I’m constantly heightened waiting for the next thing to happen. I can’t helicopter them any more than I already am, it’s impossible. So do I just have to accept that injuries are a part of life? Like, are they? Or are my kids just at an injury age? Or is my parenting terrible? What if they hit their head in the wrong place and it really causes damage? I can never remember feeling like this all of my years of nannying. I was in tears by the end of the day so overwhelmed from all of the accidents, attacks and tears. I have my period too and I’m still not 100% from having my tonsils out so I’m super emotional & exhausted which doesn’t help. I just love them both so much and I get so scared at the possibility of them getting seriously hurt. I also know I have an anxious mind naturally so would definitely overthink everything a lot so this feeling is probably another hint to book in with my psychologist asap!