. He told me he would come home and bang on the door to let him in and I said absolutely not. I told him to sleep elsewhere and locked the door. Off to sleep I went. Whole bed to myself. Bliss.
Day 68
I know I said in my last blog that I’ve got this in terms of today… turns out that was not accurate at all. I did not have today. Today had me. I had a work meeting this morning while juggling the kids which was very unproductive on my end. Edi-Rae was so unsettled and just wanted to be held which was tough for a day like today where my to do list was quite lengthy. She was like this ALL DAY. If I walked away from her at any point she would flip out. I had to put her down at a toy or the tv and run and quickly do what I needed to do in seconds before she would find me and pull on my legs and clothes to pick her up. I felt so sad knowing I wasn’t giving her the attention she needed today, I have a feeling she isn’t feeling well. Paddy also didn’t sleep so I really didn’t get a minute. By the end of the day I was really exhausted and stressed. Nick was at his Christmas party and said he would probably be home around 8. I texted him around 2 to see if he was okay as I had heard nothing. He saw my message and didn’t respond. So I texted again around 4 and said HELLOOOOO and he responded around an hour after that saying he was all good. I followed that up with a message asking if he is still home around 8 and again no response. So I called him because I had a feeling he didn’t have keys. And of course, he didn’t. So I asked again his plan and he said he would be home around 8 and I said great, I’ll wait up so you can get in. Got to 8:15 and he still wasn’t home. I spoke to my friend whose husband was with my husband and it turns out he was still at the pub. No text or nothing, and here I am sitting on the couch like a moron so he could get in. I actually don’t care when he gets home, but like, don’t involve me in your return and then not even come home. I was so tired, so this really pissed me off. I know we all get carried away sometimes, I get it, I’ve been there before so it wasn’t divorce material but I was just like- be better. I called him and had words which was so pointless as he was drinking since 7AM . He told me he would come home and bang on the door to let him in and I said absolutely not. I told him to sleep elsewhere and locked the door. Off to sleep I went. Whole bed to myself. Bliss.
. He told me he would come home and bang on the door to let him in and I said absolutely not. I told him to sleep elsewhere and locked the door. Off to sleep I went. Whole bed to myself. Bliss.